@ 18/10/2005 – 05:00:19 pm
Ha ha! We just found a human poo in the garden! One behind the greenhouse and one on the decking! They were huge!
Darrel(Amy's dad) Found the poo's and everybody has been to examine them.
I'm just wondering why a poo is so intrigueing!
Anyway enough of that, post more later.
See poo later!
xx
@ 17/10/2005 – 10:21:09 pm
last night before I went to sleep I decided that when i wake up in the morning I will rise early go for a jog, give up smoking, cut out wheat from my diet, stop drinking coffee, only eat organic food & get some work sorted out!
This morning I woke up I opened my eyes and went strait back to sleep for another hour (well that's the jogging out of the window. I woke again at around 8 & had a peice of white french stick with salad cream I then had a cup of coffee which gave me a craving for a cigarette!
This really does sum up my life. I will go to sleep again tonight and say the same things to myself and I can guarantee these things won't happen in the morning. So I am sitting here feeling crabby and bloated writing a blog and I know exactly why!
Here is why: I think if I write a blog I can refer back to it and decide if my life has moved forward or of course backwards, what I need to change, I can evaluate exacly who I am and if i actualy like myself.
It's like today I got myself into a real crazy, weepy state. I called James (My Boyfriend) and asked what time he was coming over to see me tonight and he said to me "I am not seeing you tonight, I'm seeing my mates!"
Well that's not fair really, I didn't see him last night and to be honest our relationship hasn't really been a relationship lately. I just broke down in tears. It is his day off tomorrow and it is very rare that we see each other on his day off, as he likes to spend them in bed. I really wanted to understand why he didn't want to see me. The more i cried & the more I questioned the more he talked! To cut a long story short he actually shared his feelings with me and is taking me out tomorrow day for lunch and drinks! This is possibly because: 1) he loves me (I hope so after 4 years!),2)He wants to get me off his back for a few hours 3)He can't handle it when I cry or 4)just wants to shut me up.
I am really it's because we need to talk and see exactly where our relationship is going.
Today has been another hectic one! Mum screaming about the mess (which my sisters and I cannot see, Faye (a family freind that comes over to whinge all the time) Moaning to my mum about the mess and disorganisation winding my mum up even more. My dad moaning about the wrapping (for the ebay stuff we sell) not being done by the time he came around, harry (my nephew) squealing because he doesn't like to be put in the cot.....
Ok my mum is moaning right now, on a crazy cleaning spree! I have to go i can't breathe, I am stressed out. I have no time to myself (ok mother! For f*ck sake!) I can't really help but swear when she is off on one. I need lots of money so that i can get out of this house, this crazy, strange, odd, free for all house!
I am off to bed to get shot of it, that is the only time i have peace & quiet! I am off to bed to think about all off the changes I will make for tomorrow, Give up smoking, cut out wheat, go on a diet, stop drinking coffee, stop swaering at my mum.....
Goodnight (Isn't it a bit early for bed!) 
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